she'd been looking at christmas lights from the air north of dallas last year, when she got out of her friend's plane and inexplicably walked to the front of it. days after the accident, her mother told "gma" about that harrowing night. >> i was there to hold her. and it's the toughest part of it all. just seeing her laying there. and waiting for the help. >> reporter: she lost her left eye and part of her left arm. her memoir due out next week, is entitled "still lolo." that's her nickname. lauren focuses on her recovery, the awkward fitting and painting of her left eye. her self-consciousness of her prosthetic left arm. she writes, i don't know why this is so hard, i said. soldiers are dying in afghanistan right now. and i'm too chicken to do this one thing. the former model believes her encounter with that propeller blade may have made her a better person. she writes, i came to see how there was so much more to my life than being worried about how i looked. for "good morning america," ryan owens, abc news, dallas. >> what a great perspective. >>> speaking about how you look, there's